December 7, 2011

Just Dandy

Whenever I run into people I know now, they ask how I'm doing with a sad look in their eyes. 

And then when I say "I'm fine," they go, "Really?" 

And that, my friends, is obnoxious. 

Here is the thing, I don't want to get into how I'm doing and how I'm responding to treatments and whatnot. I mean, I DO, but not when I'm in the middle of something else. WHICH, if I am running into you, I am. Because I don't run into people at my home, or at your home, which is the appropriate venue for such conversation. 

People get way too personal in public places. 

Which ALSO is not the same as getting personal on a blog. Because a blog is an extension of my personal space. I control the message, and can generally measure the response. You can't do that other places. 

At any rate, what I was going to say before I went off on my tangent, is that I'm doing okay. 

I'm doing better than I was, but not as good as I want to be, and I have my 3 month check up on Friday. Plus, I think I'm getting another MRI. You know, because we have to monitor any changes. 

I'm having a weird side effect where I basically feel like I'm choking all the time. You know when you're about to throw up, and it feels like food or whatever is stuck at the top of your throat? I have that. All the time. And it's hard to take pills when you feel like you're going to throw up all the time, because your throat muscles and the pills are having a ninja fight in the back of your throat and it's anyone's guess as to who is going to win.

And the OTHER thing is the achy crap. Like when you have the real flu and every part of your body hurts, even your hair, and it hurts to wear clothes? That. That is what I also have. On the upside, I can feel my whole face today. It's a small victory, but I'll take it.