May 13, 2021

Life Updates 2.0

I am tired. I am really, REALLY tired. Of everything. Of nothing. Life has just been A LOT, and whenever I think I have one part figured out, then a new issue jumps the line, begging for attention. 

And I'm just DONE. 

Currently keeping me awake at night are worries about whether or not to vaccinate Blayne for COVID. (I'm vaccinated. So is Troy. And Thaddeus) Because on the one hand YES! Vaccines! Hooray! But on the other hand: covid psychosis. Because people with a history of certain things (hello hallucinations) have a higher risk of triggering a very scary and severe psychosis. 

Another thing keeping me awake is Taylor, who has developed a tic. Which is going to be a fun rabbit hole of a health history deep dive, to try and figure out what the underlying cause is. Is this because she was born 8 weeks prematurely? Maybe it's her history of strep. There's also the autoimmune factor. But what if it's an allergy? Or maybe this is because she had Lyme disease when we lived in Virginia. Or maybe it's because of her chronic kidney disease. What if she's allergic to all the grains too? Maybe she has inherited my MS. Maybe it's all of those. Maybe it's none of those. 

And while we're at it, let's add in an existential crisis wherein I am trying so, so hard to grapple with faith and humanity and am continually, but unsurprisingly, disappointed in both. 

Oh, and let's not forget to mention that Thaddeus moved out.  Because of COURSE he did. He is officially an emancipated minor and wants to succeed in life, on his own, without anybody's help.  Naturally, that relationship has changed and we now have Thaddeus over for Sunday night dinner and games, and he sometimes visits during the week. 

Also, school will be out soon, and we have been figuring out our summer schedules. Blayne, Daniel, and Taylor are all taking summer school to get a few more credits under their belts. Plus, they would prefer to do PE/Fit for Life classes at home, instead of at school, and I can't say I blame them. 

Meanwhile, I'm just working a ton and trying to keep clients happy. The garden is going great. The chickens are fine. (Dottie has gone broody TWICE though. I swear if she does it a third time, she will have to go live somewhere else.) We've also been keeping track of our passport applications, and the CDC traveling requirements. We have a trip to Mexico scheduled in a couple of months, but who knows if it will be cancelled or not. LIFE IS JUST SO EXCITING. 

March 8, 2021


 I am on Day Three of the COVID vaccine. I was lucky enough to get the one dose, Johnson & Johnson version. However, I began to develop a headache almost immediately after the injection. I've also been very tired and achy. Today is the worst with the muscle aches though. It hurts to stand too long or do too much. Thankfully, day three is supposed to be the worst of it, and then I'll start to feel like a regular person again. 

In other news.... the weather is warming up. There are even green things starting to poke their heads out from the ground. This is super exciting! In another 7ish weeks, it'll be warm enough to start putting things in the ground. And this year our crops are going to be a bit different on account of our new food allergies. I need to focus on growing and putting up lots of things that we CAN eat. 

It's also official that ALL the chickens are laying eggs. And we have some beautiful colored eggs, blues and greens and pinks and browns. They look happy and beautiful sitting on my counter. Except that I now have a LOT of eggs, and we really don't eat THAT many. Starting in July/August, I'll be waterglassing some of the extras. But I have a good bit of waterglassed eggs already that I need to get through before I start adding any new ones. So I'm going to be ordering egg cartons today and put out a little "for sale" notice to a local page. I don't even know how much to charge. I guess I need to figure out how much pasture-raised eggs go for. 

What else, what else... It's officially been a year of the pandemic. Oh! And today is mine and Troy's nineteenth wedding anniversary. We shall celebrate by ordering dinner from a restaurant and eating it at home with all the kids. It's a bit lame, but OH WELL. WE'RE OLD AND LAME. We'll do something fun and exciting next year. 

February 25, 2021

Another day, another headache

My head HURTS today. 

I had a deadline this last Monday, with a presentation, and I worked HARD all weekend long, staying up late to get certain things finished on time. 

Now, you should know, I gave up Dr. Pepper. I just stopped, cold turkey, because I have no self-control, and if it is in the house I will drink it. So it's GONE *poof* and everything was going swell. 


(The dreaded until...) I was on day three of 12-15 hour work days, and I was in the middle of animating a video for the landing page of a company I work with. And my boys were going out to do something, somewhere, and I said "Hey. Will you please bring me back a Dr. Pepper?" 

Now, these cute boys were like, "Mom. You stopped drinking that. You said that we should never buy you one again." 

And I was like, "I know, but my head is killing me, and I have tons more to do, and I just need some caffeine." 

And then they said, "𝆕okay-ay𝆕" in a kinda sing-song-y type of way. 

Except then they came home. And instead of getting me ONE Dr. Pepper, they went to Sams Club and brought home AN ENTIRE CASE. 

And since I have no self-control, I chugged way, WAY too many cans of Dr. Pepper. 

So now, today, I have a headache from caffeine and sugar withdrawal, but I am POWERING THROUGH with Tylenol and LOTS and LOTS of water. 

And now I know that even when I think I could have maybe just one little sip of my favorite drink, well... I CAN'T. 

The end.