May 6, 2010


Where to begin...

That's the question I've been thinking about for weeks now.

In less than three weeks, I will be getting on a plane, and heading out west for the Casual Blogger Conference. For MY conference, the one that I have poured my heart and soul into with the help of my two amazing business partners, Elisa and Julie.

For months, we've been planning every last detail. From the venue, to the entertainment, to the wording on the legal documents, each detail has been meticulously planned... except for that one part that I've been avoiding.

I will be speaking on a panel...

"Writing Through the Pain," it is called.

But I can't find the beginning. 

I know the culmination of the story. I know where it gets especially hard. I know the parts I hate. But the beginning...

I am lost for the beginning.

I have so much that I want to say.

So many small things that led to the end.

Not that it's really ended.

I mean, I have a CONCLUSION, but not an ending.

And they're really not one and the same...


  1. The beginning is as ambiguous as the ending. There is no "ending" just a conclusion (as you mentioned). What a true statement. So, where you begin is hard to say. Is it when you dreamed of becoming a mother as a child? When you planned on having children with your brand new hubby? Or maybe when you first heard you may not be having more, four was it for you, for the very first time.

    I look forward to hearing you speak, no matter what you say. Good luck girl. We are all on your team!

  2. What Amy said.

    I think it would be hard to find the beginning. I think I agree with what Amy said...I'd probably start with what you dreamed and envisioned your life as a mother would be one day, before you had your first child.

    I guess you weren't asking for advice though...I think you were just sharing the struggle to know where to start your story.

  3. Advice is good. I'll take it.

  4. "Once upon a time" probably wouldn't cut it......

  5. What you told me today. THAT's what you say.

    You are going to be brilliant!

  6. I second the "Once upon a time" idea ... pulling the idea that in your brain you had this idea ... and how it changed into your own personal fairytale now.

  7. How about "Hi, my name is Caroline:-)"