October 20, 2009

Open Mouth, Insert Foot

My life is in a funk right now. I can't explain it, and there's nothing truly "wrong" per say, but I feel off. You know? It's just one of those months when one thing right after another piles up and then suddenly, it's all too much.

The kicker is that I think I'm handling it, and then someone asks me a perfectly innocent question and I respond with way too much information.

Something as simple as, "Hey, are you coming out with us Friday?"

And without even thinking about it, I open my mouth and WORDS and STATEMENTS and TOO MUCH PRIVATE INFORMATION starts gushing out. Instead of saying, "No, I can't." I say;

"No. I can't... My renters totally bailed and they didn't tell us until after they'd moved out, but we'd already made that mortgage payment, and you know how everything's all connected? So that threw off THIS mortgage and a couple other things and I just got another bill from my hysterectomy back in January, and no matter what I do, I can't lose any weight right now which is really really annoying and Halloween is coming and And AND...."

And I can't STOP! The words just keep coming out of my mouth until I notice that the person is just staring at me like a full on crazy person because HELLO! I'M OUT OF MY EVER LOVING MIND. Then I start in on that whole nervous laughter thing. You know the one,

"Heh. heh. Just kidding. We're totally not broke! HA! That would like, SUCK for us, but GOOD THING, I was JUST JOKING. HA. HA. HA."

And then I get into my car and drive away muttering to myself like a crazy person. It is GOOD TIMES over here. The absolute goodiest.

How's your Tuesday going?

13 comments:

  1. I had a crapload of ladybugs all over my front door when I got home today.

    I hear they are good luck.

    I am sending you TONS and TONS of ladybugs and hugs.

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  2. I've had months like that. Luckily, they do pass and things do get better.

    Hang in there!

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  3. I do this. Really. All the time. I DO THIS!

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  4. Um, is Sue at Navel Gazing guest posting for you today? (that was meant to be a compliment, btw)

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  5. That's me. All the time. Maybe that's why I don't get invited out much?

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  6. Judy S.11:25 PM

    yup, been there... I told my whole girl scout troop about my medical issues in a newsletter. I just lost my mind. It happens.

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  7. Yeah, you almost went all "East coast" on them! The one thing missing is telling everyone to totally "eff" off! (just joking....cuz, I have never done that, but do think it about obnoxious, mean people) Oh, and to Stella... the ladybug infestation is nationwide and totally creeping me out.

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  8. I do the same thing...I spew out all kinds of personal information and the person who asked the original question just kind of stares at me, and I wonder if she is formulating a plan to stage an intervention to get me some help for my emotional problems.

    Sorry that life is totally overwhelming.

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  9. Welcome to the last 1 1/2 years of my life. . . We will make it... BOTH of us!

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  10. Been there done that. You WILL regain your sanity. Unfortunately when you do, you'll realize how VERY crazy you've been.

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  11. Okay. Clearly I should have called you a little earlier. Then you could have just left me with all your crazyies and spared the other lady.

    P.S. Remember total break downs are perfectly normal & okay to have. :)

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  12. My friend, you need to find someone who can listen for a couple of hours and let you just run off at the mouth for a solid 120 minutes!

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