May 3, 2009

A friend of mine passed away this weekend.

I can't get her out of my head. I keep picturing her laughing and smiling. I keep returning to the same thought over and over. How? She was healthy, and happy. She was a devoted wife, mother, sister, and friend. She was warm and caring, compassionate and beautiful. She was healthy. How could things go so wrong so quickly?

I think of her husband and how devastating this must be for him. I think of the children she left behind, the little boys that will have to grow up without her gentle guidance.

I think of her.

I see her face and I hear her voice.... I have so many questions I want to ask her.

Did you know it was the end? Did you tell your kids you loved them? Is there anything you want to say to them? Are you scared?

I try and piece together her last moments. I try to sort out what I would do. What I would say. She's only been gone a moment, and even though her time here is finished, she's taught me so much.

She's taught me that I need to be my best every day.

That I need to hold tight to the people I love because in an instant, it can be gone.

That I need to develop a closer relationship with my Heavenly Father.

That there is only today.... there might not be a tomorrow.

I wish it hadn't happened this way. Then I think about how maybe this was another part of her purpose here on earth. To teach us all that life is about the moments, the little things. That there is a greater plan working than we know. That maybe we're focused on the wrong things.

I see her smile...

19 comments:

  1. Oh, I'm soooooooo sorry!

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  2. It takes these times to help us refocus, sometimes... I have some vinyl on my wall (in huge letters) that says, "Treasure Life's Little Moments." How many times do I walk under that (it's the entrance to a hallway) and never glance up... How many times do I actually glance up, but I don't let the words sink in... Makes me think...

    I'm so sorry for your loss!!

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  3. I'm so sorry! Many hugs and good thoughts!

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  4. I am so sorry for your loss. I've never lost a close friend, but I have lost people I love, and it's so painful. I am thinking about you!

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  5. I am so sorry for you and your friends' family. When everything else is gone, at least we have hope, hope that this is not all there is. Take care of yourself.

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  6. I'm so sorry. I don't know who passed away, but I'm crying because I care about you and how you feel, and also because a sweet family is suffering.

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  7. I'm sorry for your friends loss too. Very thoughtfully put I might add. Take care of yourself. Lean on the Lord in these tough times.:)



    PS:In case you are not recognizing the handle oneclutteredbrain, I used to go by Covington SEnsation's. I recently changed it. You know me from MMB and Mom logic.

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  8. I am so very sorry. You, and your friend's family, are in my thoughts and prayers.

    I am so very sorry for your loss.

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  9. My condolences. Thank you for sharing this with us, so that we all remember to make the most out of each day.

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  10. Oh honey, I'm so sorry.

    And I'm going to go get dressed now. Honest.

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  11. I am truly sorry. This such was beautifully written tribute.

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  12. Oh no. I'm so sorry. And you're so right, the purposes we hold are so much bigger than even our time here, but it's still so painful.

    I'm sorry.

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  13. I am sorry for your loss.

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  14. I am very sorry--can I get a happy post about my birthday nephew today?

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  15. Shawnie's obituary was published today. She was a dear friend and I miss her greatly.

    I can't think of her without seeing her smile and hearing her laugh.

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  16. I am truly so sorry for your loss.. ((Hugs to you))

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  17. I am so very sorry. All my sympathies. How vry sad.

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  18. Thank you for writing this, I too had these same questions and feelings. -Sharon

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